Here I am, a writer, with SO much to say right now… and feeling completely blocked. Like, it just doesn’t want to come out. AT ALL.

(The irony is not lost on me here as next week, I will be leading an oceanside writing workshop for conscious leaders to get free’d up and fully expressed in their messaging. One of the lessons is working through writer’s block. Oh, cheeky Universe!)

Meanwhile, my VA is messaging me for new content so she can do her thing, and I’m, like, “It’s totally coming!! It’s all on my heart. I just need some time and space to get it out.”

But, sitting here (late last night, actually) for hours, and I got NOTHING. I wrote myself in circles. Missing all the points. None of it felt right.

It usually flows so easily. This is the container I’ve created around being creative.

So, what’s happening?

Well, of course, I already know the answer. It’s within. It’s always within.

But, until getting honest, the “Oh, I’m blocked” writing in circles game was going to play itself in a continuous loop.

Truth is the greatest liberator. Always.

Looking through the lens of truth, I say, “So much is shifting and transitioning in my world right now — it’s hard to keep up with all the feels and express them in a meaningful way within the constraints of language.”

Sure. That could be my answer. I mean, I could totally get a pass on THAT being the cause of my block & let myself off the hook right there. Sounds good enough. Write about it. Tie in a happy ending. Send a link to my VA. Go about my day. And, it wouldn’t be wrong, per se…

But, truth doesn’t play like that. Not REAL truth anyway.

It knows when it’s being fully expressed. And when it’s being tiptoed around.

And, only you know the difference. You COULD get away with half-truths all day. Most of us play at that level, actually. But, it causes a lot of suffering. You already know this. Your soul always knows.

However, if you desire healing and ascension ~ you do the deep work. Even though it doesn’t feel good. There is no other way.

So, reluctantly, I chose diving deeper. Many hours of contemplation. And, that’s when, finally, I allowed it to bubble up. (As it always does, when you lean into surrendering.)

In another twist of irony, the message came through:

“You’re still hiding.”

What? (Ego talking:) This is news to me. I’ve done all the work ~ over a decade and counting. Like, it’s my job. I’m so out of hiding that I’m not even the same person, anymore! I mean, my business platform is built on becoming unleashed and fully expressed and bare naked and vulnerable and this is what I teach others to do all day long. And it’s powerful. And it works.

AND…

(Truth taking back over the wheel:)

“There’s more work to do.”

We teach what we’ve experienced in our own lives, passing the messages down when a few steps ahead, helping others to rise.

AND, we teach what we need to know at a deeper level. There is no finish line to our learning and expansion. It just shifts into leading us towards mastery.

In fact, that’s how you know you are REALLY on the right track: When you’re teaching what you are called to become masterful in this lifetime — as in, the lessons keep showing up. And, each time you “pass” the test, you’re a little wiser, stronger, and more effective. It comes in many waves in many layers, and over many years. And, just when you think you’ve “won” the game, another test shows up. Another chance to level-up.

So, now, I know. My work to do is to find all the dark corners where I am still hiding — and shine light and love onto them so they may be set free.

And, as I continue to liberate myself in this way, I get to share this liberation with others.

What a gift to now be able to teach from this new place of humbleness and shared humanity. From a place of, “I don’t have all the answers. I’m doing the work WITH you. Also, I’ve already done a lot of the hard stuff so it doesn’t have to be as difficult for you. Let me show you the way…”

Ahh. That feels better now. Like a whole book could flow out of me. 🙂

Energetically, our half-truths will fragment us. We’ll feel blocked all day. Relieving them is bliss.

So, if this is stirring something inside of you, you may sit with asking where you are not being fully truthful with yourself. (And, you already know. We always know!)

Instead of making yourself wrong about it, how about you surrender into it? And, realize it is all PERFECT. Happening FOR you and your ascension. In fact, it couldn’t have been scripted any better. The next step towards mastery. Enjoy the journey. <3

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PS: If this struck you on a soul level & you would like to take the next steps together, there are 2 spots open in next week’s Writing from the Soul workshop. Two days, in a beautiful oceanfront home, divine flow immersion, magical people, maybe you? Contact me for more info… <3 <3