“Am I insane?”

“Have I gone mad?

“Am I a crazy person?”

👆🏻All recent conversations I’ve had with myself.

One wouldn’t need to look too hard to find evidence to support said theories.

In the last month, I’ve gone on a 28 day fast with no food. I sold my house. Got rid of more-than-half my stuff. Moved to a condo on the beach. And, ended a two decade relationship.

In the process, I’ve experienced every emotion known to man. Very deeply.

People have had concerns. Even a few harsh judgements, and un-friendings (both online & off) — from strangers and people I thought were friends alike, who are viewing from the limited scope of their own life.

A few days ago, I was wiping tears from my 10 year-old daughter’s eyes on the beach. In the midst of experiencing the most epic sunset, she let it all out, sensitive soul that she is. Everything she’s been holding in & feeling in the midst of the rapid change in her young life.

We breathed together and I loved on her, helping her to move through it all.

In the process, I took on her pain as my own & felt, in that brief moment, like the worst mom on the planet — knowing that I am she who put the cause of said hurt into motion.

And, as much as I wish I could say it was a mutual decision in this uncoupling, it really wasn’t. The choice has been on me, casting me as the heartbreaker in this narrative (because you only get to choose the role in your own life — not how you occur for others).

Man, those are hard pills to swallow.

But, despite all of that…

Every time I drop in — out of my head and into my heart — when I just let go and feel into the all-knowing essence of my soul — that familiar feeling of calm, and comfort, and clarity takes over.

The message is the always same.

“You are on the right path.”

“This is for the highest & best good of all.”

“It’s hard now, yes. But, keep going.”

“Trust”

Following your heart, coming into alignment, leaning into your purpose — not easy work.

I avoided taking action for longer-than-I-care to admit because I knew it wasn’t going to be easy.

It’s still not easy. Every day, I do the work, though.

Most people will never even answer the call (and live their entire life with that “unsettled” feeling pulling at their soul, slowly gnawing away. I’ve been there too).

But, on the other end of the spectrum of darkness is light. The contrast is what gives us our grit. Our clarity. It’s how we harness our superpowers.

In this same 30 day time frame, in the midst of grieving and heartache, I’ve also felt total ecstasy and bliss.

I’ve been fully present and transparent with my young daughters. We’ve lost all track of time together, many times, frolicking by the sea.

I’ve had to pinch myself as the most epic sunrises & sunsets show up, like clockwork, outside my window each day, as a gentle reminder of how much beauty there is to take in when we too Just. Show. Up.

This morning, Calista crawled into bed with me to snuggle as we listened to the sounds of waves crashing. We laughed hysterically about I-don’t-even-remember-what. No trace of the tears from the night before. All a testament to what being heard, loved, and a good night’s sleep can do for the soul.

Friends have been showing up in my world too – both old & new – like earth angels to support and love me at just the right time, in just the right way, when needed the most. (And, I have, finally, been open to fully receiving, which is also a miracle).

The most amazing clients also continue to show up, seemingly effortlessly and out of nowhere, but I know it’s because of how I show up for them. I am SO freaking tapped in right now. I was born to do this work of vulnerabilty, liberation, self-expression, and stepping fully into purpose & I’ve never been so ready.

In the deepest part of my knowing, I know this is the right path. (Because when you know – you just know).

Why am I sharing this? And, why do I share so much (many often wonder)?

Because, we ALL have that voice. The one that has us question our sanity. Am I enough. Am I too much? Have I made the right decision?

We’ve all faced judgements from people that know a fraction of a truth, but treat it as truth.

Most let those voices (of self and others) take them out of the game. In doing so, start shrinking & give up on their own deepest desires. (Look around. It’s why SO many people are unhappy. Anxious. Depressed. Turning to alcohol, drugs, food, sex, whatever, to try to fill that void).

But, for those who drop in and listen to the only voice that matters, the other “crazy” ones out there: I just want to remind you, as I remind myself: You can never get it wrong when you’re answering the call of your heart & expressing the truth of your song.

Even when you are losing (and gaining) friends at warp speed, and everything in your reality is shifting rapidly: Keep. Showing. Up.

Remember who you are and why you are here.

As you walk through the fire and dance with the flames, know you are stepping into something so much greater than ever imagined.

And, when the voice of self-doubt creeps back in asking, “Am I crazy”, you can just smile & say, “Of course we are, love” as if you know one of the secrets of the Universe, (because you do.)

The name of the game is to get out of mind.

Lose. Your. Mind.

Yeah, sounds a little crazy. But, that’s the exact place where you find your Self. Your Truth.

Don’t be afraid of the darkness. No need to run from the madness. It’s where the greatest growth occurs. Where the hidden treasures reside. It’s how you know you’re doing it right.

We’ve been taught to run from pain. To keep our truth to ourselves. To stifle our feelings are label them as negative.

How’s that been working out for humanity & the planet?

Time to step into a new way of being, love bugs. One that straddles the line of perceived “sanity.”

The only way out is through the flames. Through the pain. If this message is serving and you’re feeling the pull & looking for support on your mission, PM me & lets talk about how we can dance through the fire together. 💃 🔥

Sending big love to all my crazy ones (And, let’s admit: we’re all a little mad here) 😉

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