“Am I insane?”

“Have I gone mad?

“Am I a crazy person?”

👆🏻All recent conversations I’ve had with myself.

One wouldn’t need to look too hard to find evidence to support said theories.

In the last month, I’ve gone on a 28 day fast with no food. I sold my house. Got rid of more-than-half my stuff. Moved to a condo on the beach. And, ended a two decade relationship.

In the process, I’ve experienced every emotion known to man. Very deeply.

People have had concerns. Even a few harsh judgements, and un-friendings (both online & off) — from strangers and people I thought were friends alike, who are viewing from the limited scope of their own life.

A few days ago, I was wiping tears from my 10 year-old daughter’s eyes on the beach. In the midst of experiencing the most epic sunset, she let it all out, sensitive soul that she is. Everything she’s been holding in & feeling in the midst of the rapid change in her young life.

We breathed together and I loved on her, helping her to move through it all.

In the process, I took on her pain as my own & felt, in that brief moment, like the worst mom on the planet — knowing that I am she who put the cause of said hurt into motion.

And, as much as I wish I could say it was a mutual decision in this uncoupling, it really wasn’t. The choice has been on me, casting me as the heartbreaker in this narrative (because you only get to choose the role in your own life — not how you occur for others).

Man, those are hard pills to swallow.

But, despite all of that…

Every time I drop in — out of my head and into my heart — when I just let go and feel into the all-knowing essence of my soul — that familiar feeling of calm, and comfort, and clarity takes over.

The message is the always same.

“You are on the right path.”

“This is for the highest & best good of all.”

“It’s hard now, yes. But, keep going.”

“Trust”

Following your heart, coming into alignment, leaning into your purpose — not easy work.

I avoided taking action for longer-than-I-care to admit because I knew it wasn’t going to be easy.

It’s still not easy. Every day, I do the work, though.

Most people will never even answer the call (and live their entire life with that “unsettled” feeling pulling at their soul, slowly gnawing away. I’ve been there too).

But, on the other end of the spectrum of darkness is light. The contrast is what gives us our grit. Our clarity. It’s how we harness our superpowers.

In this same 30 day time frame, in the midst of grieving and heartache, I’ve also felt total ecstasy and bliss.

I’ve been fully present and transparent with my young daughters. We’ve lost all track of time together, many times, frolicking by the sea.

I’ve had to pinch myself as the most epic sunrises & sunsets show up, like clockwork, outside my window each day, as a gentle reminder of how much beauty there is to take in when we too Just. Show. Up.

This morning, Calista crawled into bed with me to snuggle as we listened to the sounds of waves crashing. We laughed hysterically about I-don’t-even-remember-what. No trace of the tears from the night before. All a testament to what being heard, loved, and a good night’s sleep can do for the soul.

Friends have been showing up in my world too – both old & new – like earth angels to support and love me at just the right time, in just the right way, when needed the most. (And, I have, finally, been open to fully receiving, which is also a miracle).

The most amazing clients also continue to show up, seemingly effortlessly and out of nowhere, but I know it’s because of how I show up for them. I am SO freaking tapped in right now. I was born to do this work of vulnerabilty, liberation, self-expression, and stepping fully into purpose & I’ve never been so ready.

In the deepest part of my knowing, I know this is the right path. (Because when you know – you just know).

Why am I sharing this? And, why do I share so much (many often wonder)?

Because, we ALL have that voice. The one that has us question our sanity. Am I enough. Am I too much? Have I made the right decision?

We’ve all faced judgements from people that know a fraction of a truth, but treat it as truth.

Most let those voices (of self and others) take them out of the game. In doing so, start shrinking & give up on their own deepest desires. (Look around. It’s why SO many people are unhappy. Anxious. Depressed. Turning to alcohol, drugs, food, sex, whatever, to try to fill that void).

But, for those who drop in and listen to the only voice that matters, the other “crazy” ones out there: I just want to remind you, as I remind myself: You can never get it wrong when you’re answering the call of your heart & expressing the truth of your song.

Even when you are losing (and gaining) friends at warp speed, and everything in your reality is shifting rapidly: Keep. Showing. Up.

Remember who you are and why you are here.

As you walk through the fire and dance with the flames, know you are stepping into something so much greater than ever imagined.

And, when the voice of self-doubt creeps back in asking, “Am I crazy”, you can just smile & say, “Of course we are, love” as if you know one of the secrets of the Universe, (because you do.)

The name of the game is to get out of mind.

Lose. Your. Mind.

Yeah, sounds a little crazy. But, that’s the exact place where you find your Self. Your Truth.

Don’t be afraid of the darkness. No need to run from the madness. It’s where the greatest growth occurs. Where the hidden treasures reside. It’s how you know you’re doing it right.

We’ve been taught to run from pain. To keep our truth to ourselves. To stifle our feelings are label them as negative.

How’s that been working out for humanity & the planet?

Time to step into a new way of being, love bugs. One that straddles the line of perceived “sanity.”

The only way out is through the flames. Through the pain. If this message is serving and you’re feeling the pull & looking for support on your mission, PM me & lets talk about how we can dance through the fire together. 💃 🔥

Sending big love to all my crazy ones (And, let’s admit: we’re all a little mad here) 😉

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This picture was taken at the Lahaina Banyan tree on my last day in Maui, last September.

It’s 60 feet tall and takes up an entire block!! (It has over 10 trunks, which makes it look like a small forest, but it’s actually just one tree). Such beauty!

The energy was off the chain here. (Some of you may even be able to feel it in the picture).

Listen to the sound of thousands of birds, who have made this tree their sanctuary, chirping in unison. Quite the experience. It was like being transported to another world.

Of course, I gave her a big, long hug!

There is a lot we can learn from trees…

Everything a tree ever needs to know about how to grow & to thrive — all of that information is already coded inside. In perfect harmony with the Universe: the sun, the soil, the CO2, the rain — it all conspires with them, from the time they are a tiny seedling, to allow them to grow & do what nature intended.

They don’t need to seek without. There is no tree guru they need to find. They don’t need to take 1000 online courses and work on a becoming a better tree. They just “be.”

We have this same eternal wisdom of the Universe available to us. Yet, so few of us remember how to access it.

When we seek within, we find the answers. Our internal guidance system and intuition is every bit as perfectly all-knowing and in sync with the Universe as that of the tree.

But, as humans, with our incredible cognitive abilities, it’s easy to forget who we are. It can all be so easy… but we often choose to make it really complicated. We can doubt ourselves. We overanalyze. We learn to ignore the whispers of the soul. And we drive ourselves utterly mad in the process.

The more we look outwards for validation, for the answers, for the “right” path — the further we get from knowing our truth.

We make it so hard on ourselves. We forget to just “be” our divine selves, to flourish and thrive in harmony with the Universe, easily and effortlessly… flowing, like the tree.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m all for seeking the wisdom and advice of those who are several steps ahead of us. I hire coaches and consultants AND I coach and consult. I’m also the first to acknowledge someone who has inspired me or helped me along my path, and will humbly receive acknowledgement from those I have inspired and helped along theirs.

But, at the end of the day, we are our own gurus. Always. Period. No exceptions. Everything we need to know is already inside of us. Those who inspire us along the way are simply reflections of our own light, reminding us who we are.

Of course, sometimes we DO need a reminder (and a lot of love) to reconnect with the fullest power of who we are and tap into our infinite potential.

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One of my gifts is being able to see you as your highest self. Together, we can uncover the gap of where you are today and where you wish to be, as the fullest expression of your divine self. What beliefs are in the way? What are you unclear on? What are you stuck with?

I hold the space for it all to unfold and reflect your brilliance back to you.

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There has been something placed on your heart to unfold into. There is a higher purpose for why you are here. Everything that has happened in your life so far has been preparing you for this moment.

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Change is a catalyst for growth.

And, it can feel really scary.

In our hearts, we know that stepping into the new and the unknown is a blessed opportunity to gently release all that is no longer in alignment and which no longer serves our highest good. It’s our big chance to finally grow our wings and morph into the beautiful butterfly that we are meant to be.

Our mind doesn’t always follow our heart, though.

Status quo, even when it doesn’t serve our highest good, is warm and cozy. It’s like that old tattered blanket that you just can’t bare to throw away because it has wrapped you, on countless occasions, into it’s snuggly cocoonedness (that is a word, right?). Who doesn’t want to feel safe and content inside a fuzzy hug?

But, playing it safe is where complacency happens. Our growth becomes stunted. The fire in our soul reduced to barely a smolder. It’s where life ends. Really.

Enter change.

Beware. Our ego mind doesn’t care much for change. Ego is all about fear and self-judgment. It will do its best to convince us not to make a move. What if you fail? You probably will, after all. What if this is a horrible decision? It probably is. And, who are you to take this giant leap? To dream so big? Silly you. The ego relies on the familiar, oh so reluctant to explore the unknown, and determined to keep us trapped in fearville, where countless other lost souls reside. Feeling safe, but merely a shell of our authentic selves — that’s no way to live.

It is the spaces of the unknown that the most beautiful magic of our existence occur. Gorgeous in the shape of new landscapes. Exquisite in the form of fresh experiences that mold us and help us to grow. When we’re brave enough to take the leap, adventures abound as we’re pulled into beautiful new directions. We finally get to peel back the layers and expose our delightful authenticity within.

I don’t believe that life happens to us. It happens FOR us.

So, when we are being guided into a new direction, we must go with the flow and remain open to the possibilities. We’re being prepared to blossom fully into the person we are meant to be.

So, the simple solution is this: replace fear with love. Fear is everything that can go wrong. Love is everything that can go right. Fear is close-minded and expecting the worst. Love is open to all of the possibilities and never losing faith in the fact that we’re being guided to our highest good. Fear chooses complacency and status quo. Love chooses to expand and grow into the infinite possibilities of the Universe. Fear is judgemental and considers what we’re ‘supposed’ to do according to the rest of the world. Love goes within, calls on passion and purpose, and allows intuition to take control of the wheel.

I hope you will join me in tapping into that inner-wisdom, staying strong, being fluid, and leaning into the fear. The places we’ll go, despite them being way outside of our comfort zones, are exactly where we need to visit to step fully into our highest potential. A yummy place to be.

Spread your wings and fly, baby. I will see you amongst the clouds.

In peace, love, and powerful transformation

xx,

Dawn

So, of all the things I have publicly confessed (thus far), this one is a real stretch.

Because I know some of y’all have some serious feelings about this.

And, before I go on, I assure you: It’s not you. It’s me.

But…

(There’s kind of a funny story involved, so hopefully it will soften the blow.)

Last weekend…

Last weekend, I was at a beautiful wedding (Congrats Jennifer & Kyle!!). It was getting late. We were all having a lovely time. I was a few songs in, on the dancefloor, having SO much fun.

And, then, I heard that familiar beat drop. Not a bad beat. A good beat, actually. I could get down to it.

If only…

“Oh, noooo,” I thought. “Ugh.” That’s right. “It’s the f*cking cupid shuffle.”

I know. I KNOW. Y’all love your line dances. I see you – having so much out there.

NO JUDGEMENT at all, by the way. I admire you, actually. I wish I could blend in.

“What is your problem?” I ask myself. “Just get in line with them. Do the dance. You’re having fun. They’re having fun. Why stop now?”

So, I tried. Really I did. I lasted maybe 30 seconds out there. I just couldn’t. It’s not the moves I’m referring to (obvi). It just felt so WRONG to me. And, then I felt even more wrong for feeling wrong.

In fact, I felt a little piece of my soul die out there on the dancefloor last Saturday night.

But, my God, I tried. (<— Overdramatic much?)

Walking away. Defeated. To the sidelines with that sad look in my eyes. Waiting for the next song to come on. Praying that it was not another line dance. Anything else, really. I would even take a country song, at this point. (Yes, it’s THAT bad for me).

Then, my friend Jack, who was also standing outside of the dancefloor looking in, made an, admittedly, wildly politically incorrect, yet in-that-moment, somehow profound observations out loud.

He said, dryly: “White people love to be told how to dance.”

I know. I know. So wrong.

But, then, it hit me. That’s it! That’s IT!

NOT THIS WHITE GIRL.

It’s like this for me: “Don’t f*cking tell me how to dance.”

That rebel sh*t runs deep. Good lord, woman! I had a strict upbringing. Early curfews. Don’t even think about talking to boys. Catholic school. Mass on Sundays. Aaaaand Fridays. The plaid skirts and all. “Be the good girl.”

This awareness cracked open a whole new level of discovery about myself.

All divine. All perfect.

This is what has molded me into the sacred rebel that I am today. And, in many ways it is serving. I break the rules. I do business and life my way. I question the old ways of being. I enter into the new paradigm. I carve the path for others to do the same.

And, it can show up in ways that maybe aren’t serving. (Hence, exit dancefloor left).

But, the beautiful thing about awareness is this: You get to look at it ALL. Without judgement. And, that’s usually how it goes, anyway. Our greatest gifts are bred from our deepest wounds, fears, and regrets. And, they can show up as both our brilliance AND our hindrances.

Who knew Jack’s irreverence could be so inspiring, eh?

What am I going to do with this newfound awareness? Who knows. Besides be more aware. For now. I probably still won’t get in line with y’all. #toosoon. Maybe one day.

On a side note: For real, though: If you ARE going to tell me how to dance, could you at least give me some more-inspired choreography??

Oh no she didn’t. Too far?

I know. I know. Sorry. Now, I’m just pushing buttons for fun.

You don’t squabble about the Wobble.
You don’t chide the Cha Cha slide.
You don’t play with the Whip & Nae Nae.

Please don’t un-friend me. #loveyou

But, on the serious…

Hi, my name is Dawn, and I f*cking hate line dances. And, I’m no longer ashamed.

So, my question is this? When you hear that beat drop, are you getting in line or stepping on the sidelines with me? And why? No judgement either way. Our differences are what make life so interesting.

MUCH LOVE you! ❤

The concept of ‘Getting Comfortable with Being Uncomfortable’ has been showing up for me A LOT in the past several months (hat tip to my Red Elephant mastermind leaders for this great phrase and concept!)

We’re all familiar with the expression of “the magic happens right outside of our comfort zone.” And, anybody that has even taken a leap of faith, carried onward with a heart beating out of their chest, or otherwise tiptoed outside that warm and fuzzy feeling of their zone of comfort can attest: Yes, there is something quite magical on the other side! (Shoot, the act of bravery itself is pure magic — regardless of the outcome). Continue reading “Getting Comfortable with Being Uncomfortable” →